I have been constantly singled out, from childhood. In bad and good ways.
As a student or an employee (when it happened), the pressures of performing “this instead of that” task/ role were “in the air”. And, while I understood they were the bread-and-breakfast for the many who thrive on taking their “secure by-standing options” to the next level, available at hand, I was many times unable to play the “read-me/read my mind to the opposite of it” games.
Almost every employment experience I had, gradually became a study of passive aggressiveness, harassment and discrimination in working places – as a mean to protect myself (?!). Not surprisingly, the “block at every turn” (prolonged) treatment incapacitated me in many psychological areas necessary for functioning in a given social context, for understanding myself, or sustaining myself.
I have struggled financially my whole life. A total of ten years of unemployment, in my prime, cumulated between 2005 – 2020, kept me to the “bottom of thinking” or “down to earth”, for reasons behind my understanding. And, hmm… without my informed consent.
When the number of unsuccessful attempts at getting a job got over 1000, I continued… Ha, ha! Yes! I think it was 1061 something when I decided it was a good moment for parting with the crossings and the cross-firings of the past. But reinventing oneself is not cheap, or fast, in my story. However, I did put enough effort into balancing the “dualities”. I did took to the self-imposed isolation. In a way, I am still doing it.
Amongst other roles (the black sheep, the quiet rebel, the brilliant, the stupid inefficient ass etc.), I have been lately forced into playing the “extra-terrestrial”. The results are astonishing!!! (Taking into consideration that not much is left from the “explorer” identity, acquired during childhood school years.)
The results are astonishing!!! Albeit, I actually cannot register the acquired “alien identity” with any official service in my country. Moreover, apart from the private psychology practice, there seems to be no company happy to hire people who “seem off” or “too autistic for their age”.
The results are astonishing!!! Alas, for me, this particular identity is kinda’ like a secret fashion that is powered by group thinking (in many of its linguistic manifestations – neighbourhoody, sectoral, regional, national, international, and the “wow”s), but has to BE WORN IN PRIVATE.
That is insane! And… might make me an insane alien.
So, there was no alternative for me, on this planet.
This is how I came to thinking that I need a place where to talk about my acquired “alien identity”, for my sake and for the sake of travellers landing on this planet, and feeling lost.
The MUAT – Museum of Alien Thought is going to be an ART PROJECT – a website that shall feature my thoughts, experiences, art as an alien on Earth. With further support, I could develop the project into an additional series of podcasts about the border between alienation and acquiring a (fabricated) alien identity, and if is there any benefit in embracing such identity.
A possible next phase could be a TAROT deck that could highlight new understanding about this kind of personal journey for travellers. I would very much like to bring this new TAROT deck to “life” and make it available as an unique product for personal development.
But first things first: let’s start with making this ART PROJECT project available online, and with the blogging and building an online community of readers. You are welcome!
PS: Among my personal human passions, I can list the following: poetry, TAROT, and digital scrapbooking – especially when it helps me unravel the meaning behind my own dreams. The image that illustrates this funding request is a sample digital collage scrapbooked by myself. Albeit for different reasons, I simply cannot call it “ALIEN ART”. Thank you for your understanding and support!
PS: I have tried HappyPot crowdfunding but… it is not a crowdfunding platform… what other platforms could I try? Anyone?
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